“And I know it can never come back,” he said, and he went on thinking as he looked at her. “I wonder if you can know what it is to have somebody such a part of your life that you never hear a noble strain of music, never read a noble line of poetry, never catch a high mood from nature, nor from your own best thoughts–that you do not imagine her by your side to share your pleasure in it all; that you make no effort to better yourself or help others; that you do nothing of which she could approve, that you are not thinking of her–that really she is not the inspiration of it all. That doesn’t come but once. Think of having somebody so linked with your life, with what is highest and best in you, that, when the hour of temptation comes and overcomes, you are not able to think of her through very shame. I wonder if _he_ loved you that way. I wonder if you know what such love is.”

“It never comes but once,” he said, in a low tone, that made Judith turn suddenly. Her eye s looked as if they were not far from tears. -John Fox, Jr, A Kentucky Story of Love and War

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” Liberated in Uncharted Territory”

01. Deer Tick - These Old Shoes
War Elephant (Feow Records/Revolver, 2007)
02. My first Holly Golightly Album - Walk a Mile
My first Holly Golightly Album (Damaged Goods, 2005)
03. H.P. Lovecraft - High Flying Bird
H.P. Lovecraft II (Collector’s Choice, 1968)
04. Pere Ubu - Laughing
The Modern Dance (1977)
05. The Innocence Mission - No Storms Come
Befriended (Badman Records, 2003)
06. Lee ‘Scratch’ Perry - Drum Rock
Upsetters 14 Dub Blackboard Jungle (Cooking Vinyl, 2004)
07. Lederhosen Lucil - You Suck Big
Tales From the Pantry (Lederhosen Lucil, 2003)
08. Sia - Breathe Me (Ulrich Schnauss Remix)
Colour the Small One (2006)
09. Sigur Ros - I Gaer
Hauf/Heim (2007)
10. Don Cherry - Brown Rice
Brown Rice (1975)

note: Little point in scattered thoughts. This list is that brief moment, when one realizes from few scattered thoughts that great calamity is descending. The world around is not going to be the same again after the dark wave come and go. Sort of soft melancholic dread mixed with knowing thought. It’s that angst, the moment that liberates mind. “What you gonna do now?” … that moment. sweet love, a kiss, let go and fight for new world …

see also: Cries From the Midnight Circus, It is now as it was then
image: Steven Meisel, Vogue Italia 06/07.