Photo: Llove exhibition via Yatzer.

Alice asked the Chesire Cat, who was sitting in a tree, “What road do I take?”
The cat asked, “Where do you want to go?”
“I don’t know”, Alice answered.
“Then,” said the cat, “it really doesn’t matter, does it?”

- Lewis Carrol, Alice in Wonderland.

• Tape – Summa Afrique (Oren Ambarchi remix)
  Operette (Cubicfrabric, 2004)
• Iva Bittova & Vladimir Vaclavek – Sirka V Louzi
  Bílé Inferno (Indies, 1997)
• Choying Drolma & Steve Tibbetts – Tal
  Chö (Hannibal, 1997)
• Deux Filles – She Slides
  Silence and Wisdom (Papier Mâché, 1982)
• Sogar – Selkind
  Apikal.blend (12k, 2003)

My connection was in danger—that was all. Sometimes our connection is frayed, it is in danger, it seems almost lost. Views and streets deny knowledge of us, the air grows thin. Wouldn’t we rather have a destiny to submit to, then, something that claims us, anything, instead of such flimsy choices, arbitrary days?

- Alice Munro, The Albanian Virgin.

One of those days when I feel sabotaged from within. The world turning into a pale substance made of hubris and daydreams and obsessions. I’m trying to remain constructive by making a list of  practical things that help me breathe through these sort of days. So far the activities that have worked for me are: Running for miles until the pain and exhaustion overcomes circular thoughts. Taking a nice, thorough shower of angst. Listening to music that puts me in a halcyon frame of mind. Sleeping it over.
Tonight will be the night I kill all of my idols. It’s time to stop making excuses and move on.